<< ” Not Ellen“

Ellen was a woman of ambition. She wanted to be rich and famous, travel the world, luxuriate in the fancy things that money and influence can buy. She didn’t marry so she could focus on these goals. She outlined these twenty years ago. She’s 42 now.

Ellen was a product of an illicit affair between her dancer-mother and a married club bouncer. At one point, they tried aborting her. Fetus Ellen held on to her mother’s uterus and refused to come out even after four attempts at poisoning her with ulcer medicines. She fought for her life and emerged victorious – at least, from her parents’ murderous instinct.

Ellen was born prematurely, extremely jaundiced and so small – the size of a 1-liter coke bottle. She was deposited at the hospital nursery for one week before she got to feel her mother’s taut nipple. The milk came in drips.

Ellen grew up physically weak. Silent, inactive Ellen stayed in a corner away from other children. she played little, cried often. Her nose dripped and her cough disturbed her sleep.

Ellen survived school. survived the age of crushes and proms and found herself in the environ of supposedly adult people. That’s when she vowed to change her life, put more strength to her osteoporosis-invaded bones, pump up her courage to face a brutal world….( to be continued) ###